One word: Cramps. Damn it. Just got back from a 2 hours meeting & I'm having the full-blown effects of "that time of the month". My back is achingggg. Arrhh...
Just ate panadol (I know it's bad to rely on pills but it hurts) & my hot milo has turned cold cos' I was dragged to the meeting at 9am!! But I'm going to keep a positive mind..remember think happy thoughts :)
Ok, back to work..many stuff to do & so little time..
Considering how often I used to update my blog last month, I've "slowed" down considerably this month. Anyway I must make an effort!!
By the way, if you've read my earlier post, I did mention about Class 95 having a segment called "Love Songs Confidential". Recently, I heard another problem about this listener who's feeling jealous when she sees her sister and brother-in-law together. I was like uh-oh..had a feeling about what it was and I was right. Initially her brother-in-law was in love with her but she brushed him off repeatedly and instead introduced him to her sis.
Is this what we call retribution? The thing is that people only start to realise how much they like and treasure that person when he or she is not around. My advice for her is to move on, no point harbouring feelings that cannot be reciprocated. Although there's a sense of regret, but that's life isn't it? To learn from mistakes and move forward. And to singles out there, don't be wishy washy!! If there's someone out there who likes you & vice versa, don't stand on the fence...make your feelings known and don't turn it into a "what if" : ) - I think I can become an aunt agony!! ^_^
Another one of my fab songs (I'm a sucker for songs by Aimee Mann) -
One word to describe myself right now - SIAN. Thinking of work makes me wanna faint. Sigh..the meeting tomorrow just makes me go ahhhhh but I will try to think of happy thoughts (phia, both of us need it - hehe)...
I've been having mood swings lately..yesterday I almost wanted to kick this waiter in the ass (lazy to go into details but dajie, bui, phia & jme should know)..but today morning I was in a cheerful mood & showed the V sign to my big boss. I was actually late for work so I came in from the back gate & to my horror, my school was having an event (I completely forgot about it)!!! All the big bosses were present and guess what I did? I calmly walked down & my boss saw me. Well, most people would display the guilty look but I gave him the V sign and smiled. Okay, he laughed at me which was a good thing (I hope). Anyway I did alot of comical stuff at work today (I think it's due to the stress) but fang says that she will never do it...hehe..
Okay, I think I better stop here...gotta zzzz...few more hours till work & the dreaded meeting......
I'm getting old. My back hurts like crazy (jeez and I'm only 24) . Even though my mum massaged my back over the weekend with medicated cream, it still hurts. I think I need to go to a spa asap. Somewhere to relax...
Have been on MC for 2 days. I thought I could try to relax at home so that the backache will go off but today's worst!! Hurtsss...sob...my back now has 2 medicated patches & I'm thinking of sticking more...
I've hardly been outside my room in days 'Cause I don't feel that I deserve the sunshine's rays And darkness helped until the whiskey wore away And it was then I realized that conscience never fades. When you're young you have this image of your life That you'll be scrupulous and one day even make a wife And you make boundaries you'd never dream to cross And if you happen to, you wake completely lost But I will fight for you, be sure that I will fight 'til we're the special two once again
And we will only need each other, we'll bleed together Our hands will not be taught to hold another's 'Cause we're the special two And we could only see each other, we'll breathe together These arms will not be taught to need another's 'Cause we're the special two
I remember someone old once said to me That lies will lock you up with truth the only key But I was comfortable and warm inside my shell And couldn't see this place could soon become my hell So is it better to tell and hurt or lie to save their face? Well I guess the answer is, don't do it in the first place I know I'm not deserving of your trust from you right now, Ah, but if by chance you change your mind You know I will not let you down 'Cause we were the special two, and we'll be again
And we will only need each other, we'll breathe together Our hands will not be taught to hold another's 'Cause we're the special two And we can only see each other, we'll bleed together These arms will not be taught to need another's And we're the special two
I step outside my mind's eyes for a minute And I look over me like a doctor looking for disease Something that could ease the pain But nothing cures the hurt you, you bring on by yourself Just remembering, just remembering how we were
When we would only need each other, we'd breathe together Our hands would not be taught to hold another's We were the special two And we could only see each other we'd bleed together These arms would not be taught to need another's 'Cause we're the special two
I could be such a sports freak sometimes. Woke up at 3am for the past 2 Saturdays to watch the Rugby World Cup. Last week, was the semi-final between France & England while yesterday, was the final between South Africa aka Springboks & England.
Of course, as you all know by now, the Springboks won. I was cheering for the Springboks. I felt that they were the more consistent team throughout the tournament and deserved to win. Although it was quite a tight game, but the Springboks had more more confidence. Anyway the next World Cup will be held in New Zealand (yeah!!)..2011..can't wait...
I'm contemplating whether I should put my pics in my blog. Went out with with my friends on Thurs & Fri and took some great pics. Feel like putting it here but I'm not sure if I should do it, hehe...
It took me quite a while to put my pics in friendster. Hmm..anyway what do u think? Should I upload my pics?
Gosh..I'm so busy today. Running around & I barely had the time to sit. Every one's sick and I can't get my work done when there's no one around!! Sigh...
Anyway went for some good retail therapy with Fang yesterday. Thanks to her : ), I spent around $160 on clothes. She introduced me to this store called Dotti (right spelling?). It's a nice store with great clothes. Didn't know that their clothes have appeared in magazines and even entertainment shows. I'm like a fashion hermit, hehe...
Later, I'll be meeting Kris, Christine & Karen...more money to be spent. Before my pay is even here..I'm already spending money like water...sob...
Btw fang I enjoyed myself yesterday but my wallet's burnt...can u feel my pain? Hehe...
For the past 2 days I've been busy with my reports that I've got no time to blog. This place is all about reports & meetings. Now I've got so many backlog emails to reply (screams) and other stuff that I've not cleared yet. I even got a To Do List at the side of my computer screen. But at least it's not as bad as my previous workplace - the workload there was crazyyyy (shall not name that place, but u guys know where). Oh and the clown is on medical leave again..for 4 days...I think the clown should rest at home more (i'm just down right bad)...
You know, I'm not sure why I've got such a major problem with the clown. He actually treats me ok; he gives me space to do my work. But I just can't stand him & I'm not sure if he has the slightest idea that's how I look at him. He's annoying (to me & everyone else). I think there's a personality clash somewhere. It's like when you meet someone for the first time and you know that you won't be able to get along with that person. Well, it's something like this..that's how I feel...
While I'm waiting for my hair to dry off, guess I'll write about something..
If you've been listening to class 95 at night, you would have noticed that there's a segment called "Lovesongs Confidential". Anyway listeners could write in about their secrets and other listeners could sms their comments. Last night, while the hub was driving me home, I heard this problem faced by a married lady. Basically she's in love with another guy who's also married. The worst part is that both of them are married with kids (!!). Eventually his wife found out about the affair and since then, the other guy has not contacted her and she misses him...
Hmm..well..what can I say? Honestly speaking, I pity her husband cos' he has no absolutely no idea what's going on and she has kids (oh dear)...obviously, she's smitten with the other guy..
Anyway heard some of the feedback given by the listeners and what I can say is that there's no right or wrong to loving someone..just make sure that you don't hurt anyone or yourself along the way...
Life's a bitch sometimes. Had one of those days at work on Friday and even though it's already Sunday, I'm still feeling a little gloomy. What keeps me going is knowing that there are people worst off (by switching to CNN and reading the newspapers helps) so I shouldn't be complaining. But my optimism's gradually decreasing. I might seem smiley and all but sometimes, I'm really upset. I don't really like to talk about my problems and if I do tell, it's just the surface. I'm not the kind to confide with people so usually my thoughts are all bottled up. I just don't like to talk about myself....
Like Phia, I wish that things could be simpler....
Switched on to MTV last night and James Blunt's MV for "You're Beautiful" was being played. You know at one time I was really into this song. Although I don't really get the idea of him stripping and jumping into the sea but the lyrics is really meaningful. I mean I bet there are times when you're in a train or somewhere and you see this person and both of you glance at each other. You both look at each other, then it's like.."hmmm...that's strange" feeling...you get what I mean? Hehe...I'm not sure how to describe it but guys will be able to relate to this song more than anything...
Anyway here's the lyrics -
My life is brilliant. My love is pure. I saw an angel. Of that I'm sure. She smiled at me on the subway. She was with another man. But I won't lose no sleep on that, 'Cause I've got a plan.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful. You're beautiful, it's true. I saw your face in a crowded place, And I don't know what to do, 'Cause I'll never be with you.
Yeah, she caught my eye, As we walked on by. She could see from my face that I was, Flying high, And I don't think that I'll see her again, But we shared a moment that will last till the end.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful. You're beautiful, it's true. I saw your face in a crowded place, And I don't know what to do, 'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful. You're beautiful, it's true. There must be an angel with a smile on her face, When she thought up that I should be with you. But it's time to face the truth, I will never be with you.
Feeling rather blue today. I'm not so sure why. I don't think it was the meeting I attended. Just feeling a little down. Even after my lunch, I'm still feeling the same. Not really in the mood to work and it's not because of the workload. I just feel like jetting off somewhere, out of Singapore.
Even though I complain, I know that I'm pretty privileged to be a Singaporean. I mean there are people out there fighting for their life for crying out loud. So the question is - why do Singaporeans complain about everything when we should be happy with what we have? Take a look at the forum page in the Straits Times and I bet that you would be shaking your head too. I mean we complain about simple matters like bad customer service etc. It's just plain ridiculous if you are looking from a neutral standpoint. That's how free Singaporeans can be. You know, maybe we are just taking things for granted...don't you agree?
I've just finished watching a jdorama called 14-sai no haha which means 14 year old mother. It's about a high school student who becomes pregnant with her boyfriend's child. The drama shows her gradually maturing as the circumstances around her change and the obstacles faced. Although it's a little slow paced but it's a really touching story (please prepare a packet of tissue if you are watching it).
Looking back, if it really happens to me (touch wood), I wonder if I would have the courage to raise a child at age 14. Even though I'm 24 now, I don't think I would have the courage to do so. I'm really bad with babies and it's a huge responsibility raising a child.
Maybe it's because my biological clock is not ticking yet but right now, I just can't imagine myself having a kid (shudders)...
Well basically the clown is back (ahhhh!!!!). Anyway I was down with a bad flu and sore throat, so I didn't turn up for work today (or maybe it's because deep down I just don't want to see the clown).
2 weeks passed so fast!!! I can't believe it...He should just extend his leave and not return. I dread going to work tomorrow. I just don't want to see his stupid face...
Btw please bear with me, I just needed to let it all out...oh and I also want to take this opportunity to convey my congrats to both Janie & Janice on your marriage... : )
I'm paying homage to my dad who loves songs sung by Ella Fitzgerald. He has a huge collection of her albums. For those who are not aware of her, she's considered one of the most influential female jazz vocalists.
Here's a short biography of her -
Dubbed "The First Lady of Song", Ella Fitzgerald was the most popular female jazz singer in the United States for more than half a century. In her lifetime, she won 13 Grammy awards and sold over 40 million albums. Her voice was flexible, wide-ranging, accurate and ageless. She could sing sultry ballads, sweet jazz and imitate every instrument in an orchestra. She worked with all the jazz greats, from Duke Ellington, Count Basie and Nat King Cole, to Frank Sinatra, Dizzy Gillespie and Benny Goodman.......More at http://www.ellafitzgerald.com/
You might be surprised but I prefer classic jazz singers like Ella Fitzgerald than contemporary ones like Diana Krall (influence from dad ^_^). There's more emotion in their performance and it reminds me of the swing era.
Anyway here's one of her songs -
They Can't Take That Away From Me - Ella Fitzgerald (ft Louis Armstrong)
Yes, it's that time of the month..I can't concentrate at work now and I've got so many things to do..
Was working non-stop since I stepped into the office. The associate dean just came in to talk to me, there's more stuff for me to do and 2 meetings to attend tomorrow. What's wrong with this place and meetings???
Saw this article in ELLE so I've decided to write up something similar to it.
Tam's Jet Set World
Travel Style I prefer free and easy trips. I hate package tours and the fixed itinerary that you have to follow. My ideal travel style would be one that is decided on a whim where I can just jet off to anywhere I want to go to...
Tales of Horror Not really. How about what I dislike when I'm traveling? It's when the "time of the month" falls exactly on the first day of my holiday.
Unique Memento I guess it has to be the photos that I've taken.
Personal Style Casual and practical. I love to wear clothes that make me feel comfortable. I don't care what others say, as long as it makes me feel good.
Style Icon Audrey Hepburn !! Classic style icon. A stick-slim actress with huge, limpid eyes and a heart-shaped face... She sparkles and glows with the fire of a finely cut diamond - Time Magazine
Life Mantra Quote from Audrey Hepburn - The most important thing is to enjoy life - to be happy - that's all that matters
Girl I Wanna Lay You Down by Animal Liberation Orchestra (ALO) ft Jack Johnson...
Btw I found saw this comment on Jack Johnson -
Jack Johnson songs restore my faith in love and romance
Haha..What do you think?
Lyrics -
I come over early in the mornin im like a heatwave without warnin and when i touch you my heart begins to flutter cos your smooth and creamy like peanut butter
girl i wanna lay you down girl i wanna lay you down
im gonna flood you like a love river baby the postman is about to deliver i cook you up some dinner a little pasta listen to some music a little rasta
i said girl i wanna lay you down i said girl i wanna lay you down
so turn out the lights bring out the candles wrap your arms around my love handles they say that passion may not always endure but this feeling that i have for you is burning up my world
girl i wanna lay you down (ooh oooh oooh) girl i wanna lay you down (hmmm oh lord) i said girl i wanna lay you down i said girl i wanna lay you down i said girl i wanna lay you down i said girl i wanna lay you down
I went to see a doctor yesterday and it cost me 70 bucks (sigh). It seems there's insufficient fluid in my body and I've not been drinking lots of water…
I guess this has got to do with my bad habit of being too immerse in my work. Once I start work, I'll be too focused in it that I'll not re-fill my tumbler and I'll hold on to my bladder till its lunch. That's why when I come into the office, the first thing I'll do is to switch on the comp and once it's logging in, I'll head to the pantry. But with the clown away, I tend to start work straight away (too many things on my mind), plus this was aggravated with the diarrhea I had on Saturday (more water loss).
So the morale of the story is …………………… drink lots of water…………