Met up with the gang for lunch today. Reminds me of good old times and it was worth the trip down. But the weather was scorching hot!!! The weather is crazy here. One moment it's hot and another moment it's raining. No wonder everyone's getting sick.
Anyway looking forward to the outing on 2nd Oct with the whole gang!!
Btw I luuurve the lyrics to this song. Kind of how reality plays out to be, don't you think?
Black Eyed Peas ft Jack Johnson - Gone Going
Johnny wanna be a big star
Get on stage and play the guitar
Make a little money, buy a fancy car
Big old house and an alligator
Just to match with them alligator shoes
He's a rich man so he's no longer singing the blues
He's singing songs about material things
And platinum rings and watches that go bling
But, diamonds don't bling in the dark
He a star now, but he ain't singing from the heart
Sooner or later he's just gonna fall apart
Coz his fans can't relate to his new found art
He ain't doing what he did from the start
And that's putting in some feeling and thought
He decided to live his life shallow
Passion is love for material
And its gone... gone... going...
Gone... everything gone... give a damn...
Gone be the birds when they don't want to sing...
Gone people... up awkward with their things... gone.
You see yourself in the mirror
And you feel safe coz it looks familiar
But you afraid to open up your soul
Coz you don't really know, don't really know
Who is, the person that's deep within
Coz you are content with just being the naôve brown man
And you fail to see that its trivial
Insignificant, you addicted to material
I've seen your kind before
Your the type that thinks souls is sold in a store
Packaged up with inscent sticks
With them vegetarian meals
To you that's righteous
You're fiction like books
You need to go out to life and look
Coz... what happens when they take your material
You already sold your soul and its...
And its gone... gone... going... Gone... everything gone... give a damn... Gone be the birds when they don't want to sing... Gone people... up awkward with their things... gone
You say that time is money and money is time
So you got mind in your money and your money on your mind
But what about... that crime that you did to get paid
And what about... that bid, you can't take it to your brain
Why you on about those shoes you'll wear today
They'll do no good on the bridges you've walked along the way
All that money that you got gonna be gone
That gear that you rock gonna be gone
The house up on the hill gonna be gone
The gold -- on your grill gonna be gone
The ice on your wrist gonna be gone
That nice little Miss gonna be gone
That whip that you roll gonna be gone
And what's worst is your soul will be gone
P/s: Happy 20th bday bro..hope u like the pressie..from big sis : )
Just when I was talking about world peace, I turn on the CNN news and was so disheartened by what I saw. My mum and I almost got all teary.
It's concerning the anti-government protests by the monks in Myanmar. It's been reported that the monks have actually been beaten up and taken into custody. It's ridiculous. I mean it's just peaceful demonstrations, why is there a need for violence? It really gets on my nerves.
I mean the demonstrators are not armed and they just want to voice out their opinions. Where's the freedom of speech? The people have no defenses against the military junta. It's no sad. Look at opposition leader Aung San Suu Kyi. She's been on house arrest for god knows how many years!!
Thank god for the Internet, or else the international community would never know about this. The last uprising was ages ago and I hope that this time around, something gets done fast or more will be killed. It's so upsetting to see people getting killed for wanting democracy..
I've got no mood to work today. Maybe it's because I was working like mad yesterday and I'm drained out of any energy that's left. And with the heavy rain, I really feel like Zzzz.
Anyway I was inspired by Bui's wish list on her blog so I've decided to create one here…
Tam's Wish list (I'll just do 5 for the moment)
1) World peace. I know it might sound lame to some but I'm serious. I wish that everyone will get along well with one another. Look at the Middle East, Africa, Asia etc. Those people were not born to be violent. But due to circumstances, they've got to resort to brutal tactics to get their message across. It's really upsetting that human nature is like that. 2) To be happy and healthy (loved ones included too) 3) That I will get more help in my work. Hope they hire someone soon. * Fingers crossed 4) To go to a spa and rejuvenate myself 5) To travel somewhere.
Hmm..my wish list doesn't really include material stuff. Maybe that isn't anything that I'm really motivated to get...
Okay..I've got to start work. Receiving lots of emails..
I know that I wouldn’t have the time to blog tomorrow so I guess I’ll take the time to post something…
Btw I feel that I’m moving into another transition in life when I’ve got 2 weddings to attend in a span of 3 weeks (!!). Plus the conversations that I used to have with my friends were mostly about studies but now it’s all about work and more work. I still miss those days when I was still in school. Everything seems more carefree and simple. No worries at all.
When I see students hanging out, I kind of envy them cos’ they seem to enjoy themselves. I’ll be all tired after work. Met Fang today and while I was on my way, I slept in the cab. That’s how worn out I was!! Or maybe it’s because my workload was crazy today...
Alright I need to stop here. My bro's back and needs to use the comp..
I was especially busy yesterday that I was on the verge of “exploding”. So before all hell break loose later (actually it has already started – needed to rush for something this morning), I better blog first.
Anyway, I’ve booked my tickets to Chiang Mai (yeah!!). I’ll be going back for 10 days (can’t wait) in December. I love the weather during December cos’ it’s like winter there and it’s so cooling. I also love the slower pace in Chiang Mai and if I’ve got enough money (that’s like many years to come); I would like to have my own vacation house there. Ooohh..as I’m typing, I can’t wait to go back.
Well I guess most Singaporeans prefer Bangkok but for me, I like Chiang Mai better. It’s not as busy as Bangkok and Bangkok reminds me of Singapore so what’s the use of going there when it’s like Singapore? I suppose the plus point for Bangkok would be the shopping but still, when you live in Singapore, sometimes a slow paced environment would be great. And to those who have that misconception that Chiang Mai is like a village, pleaseeee it’s so modern now. I will seriously kick your ass if you tell me that. The clown did that mistake and it was in front of my boss!! I gave him the – Are you stupid look? and told him that Chiang Mai isn’t like that at all (yes, that’s right, I don’t care). There are so many things to do there, like visit DoiSuthep, going shopping (the shopping centers are similar to those in Bangkok), oh and the night market is the best!!
Oh dear, I think I better stop here cos’ I’ll go on and on..hehe
Just watched the movie - Tada, Kimi wo Aishiteru on DVD and it's a very touching, heart wrenching movie (phia, you'll love it). Usually I'm not really into these kind of storyline but this movie is really worth watching.
Anyway here's a short summary of the movie (courtesy of crunchyroll.com) -
Due to his inferiority complex, Makoto shies away from other people, but Shizuru manages to make him open up to her. Because of their friendship, Shizuru takes interest in photography and they often go to a forest, partially hidden from the public, to take photos. Shizuru wants nothing but to be at Makoto's side. When Makoto starts liking a college friend Miyuki, Shizuru decides that she too will like Miyuki and becomes her friend. One day, Makoto asks Shizuru what birthday present she would like. With her interest in a photography contest, Shizuru wants a photo of them kissing in the hidden forest. Since that day of the forest kiss Shizuru disappears from Makoto's life.
The main actress Aoi Miyazaki is so cute, I feel like hugging her. I actually watched the movie because of her.
I love the theme song too. It really fits the movie and is sung by Ai Otsuka.
Had a pretty bad dream yesterday morning. I actually dreamt that someone I knew passed away and I was attending the wake. I actually woke up in tears and was out of breath. Besides those déjà vu dreams, I’ve had dreams like this before (thank god it doesn’t happen in real life) even though it has been a long time since I’ve had this sort of dream.
When I was a kid, my ah ma used to tell me that when you dream of someone that has passed away, youmust never ever tell that person or else you will have misfortune. I’m not sure if it’s an urban legend but I kind of believe it (since it’s from my ah ma).
Anyway I wish that I don’t get this kind of dreams ever again. It really makes me upset..
I feel that blogging is a great avenue to release my stress. After posting the previous post last night, I feel much better this morning.
Butttttt after coming to the office and checking my inbox, the stress level is gradually increasing so I’m decided to blog to make myself feel better and to take my work slowly today (it’s a Friday!!).
Anyway took the train today. Can’t stand the crowd, I hate it when people push around. It seriously gets on my nerves. If it’s possible, I would love to take a bus but the morning traffic is horrendous. Once I took a direct bus to work and I was on the verge of losing my patience seeing that the bus was stopping at every stop. And that was my first day at work and I was late for half an hour!! (LOL). Well..lesson learnt, take a train next time even if you hate the crowd.
Btw have you realized that there some people in the train that listens to their mp3 real loud? It’s as if you are listening to the radio in the train. For me, I usually stone away in the train (yes, go ahead and laugh). No reading newspapers, no listening to my mp3. I’ll just stand in the train without "anything" in my head. In other words, a blank mind. I prefer to do that before a stressful day at work and facing the clown. So guys if you see me in the train (especially in the morning) and I don’t say hello, it’s not because I’m arrogant, it’s because I’m stoning away..haha..so that’s another revelation about myself. I’m emo and a stoner in the morning..
I’ve been extremely busy with work that I didn’t even have the time to blog. In fact, I wanted to post something today but with all the meetings, I couldn’t even sit down and relax. I was on edge, a total of 3 meetings that I attended today and a ton of stuff to do. The clown’s on leave tomorrow but I feel so stressed out cos’ I have soooo many things to follow up. It’s madness. It’s like everyone expects me to perform well or sometimes even better than the clown. Maybe it’s because during the meetings, I tend to voice out my concerns (which is a good thing) but I need a break sometimes. I’ve already highlighted some procedures that could be implemented and improved so I hope these changes will come soon. Had a one-to-one meeting with the Asst Dean on Tuesday and she seems to understand the problems faced so I hope her report will state the matters that I’ve raised ^_^
I tried it out.............and this is the kind of bra I am --
You Are a Lace Bra!
Dreamy, romantic, and ultra-feminine You're a womanly woman who makes guys feel like men Your perfect guy is strong, determined, and handsome With a softer side that only you can draw out
I’m trying to make a conscientious effort to update my blog everyday so today will just be some random thoughts –
Well, basically for the past few days I’ve got meetings to attend (boring) and more reports to do. Anyway the clown is on half day medical leave today (yeah!!). He’ll be on leave this Friday too, away for 2 weeks (heaven to me) but I’ve got a nagging feeling that I’ll be more busy than usual. The last time he went to Australia, I was so busy.
I’ve also started teaching my ex-tuition student for a month before her PSLE starts. It’s been almost a year since I’ve seen her and gosh, she’s like taller than me and bigger size. Not only has her appearance changed but what I’ve taught her before has literally gone down the drain. In fact, I actually had to teach her from the basics again (shakes head) and I kind of reprimanded her yesterday though I’m the only one that she listens to. I used to get my friend’s sis to teach her which totally didn’t work out at all.
Sigh..she’s just not taking her studies seriously. I’m so worried for her. After seeing her progress, I can only conclude that the tuition center she used to study at is really crap. I don't believe in tuition centers, I feel that one-to-one interaction is always better. It’s a real pity that I couldn't teach her after I started working cos' I've actually fallen asleep while teaching her (I was that tired after work). But after seeing her sms for help, I couldn't just leave her alone and I’ve taught her since she was in Primary 3 so there's some sort of attachment there. Anyway I hope that she does well.. ^_^
I kind of had a weird dream today. It’s about me traveling around with my neighbor’s cat. What I remembered vividly was placing the cat in my bag (with its cute head popping out). Strange dream…
Anyway, talking about dreams, I’ve got a tendency of having “déjà vu” dreams. I’ll be in that particular situation and then it'll hit me that the situation I’m in is so surreal. It’s like something that I’ve dreamt of and this has actually happen quite a number of times. The one that stucks in my head till now was the dream that I had when I was in primary school. I dreamt that my dad told me that he got the ballot to move into a new flat in Bishan. Lo and behold, a few years later when I was in sec 1, we got a letter informing us that my dad’s ballot for a flat in Bishan was successful (!!). How bizarre was that? I’ve got so many of these dreams…
This is for you Phia, a post just for you - LIBRA - The Harmonizer
Nice to everyone they meet. Can't make up their mind. Have own unique appeal. Creative, energetic, and very social. Hates to be alone. Peaceful, generous. Very loving and beautiful. Flirtatious. Give in too easily. Procrastinators. Very gullible.
Lately, some of my friends have been having problems with their other half. I suppose that is no such thing as a perfect relationship, everyone has their ups and downs. Even if we lend them a listening ear, it’s ultimately up to the individuals in the relationship. As an outsider, we'll be thinking – “gosh, if you’re not happy, just break up already”, but if we think deeper, it’s not an easy choice breaking up. There are feelings and emotions attached to it. That’s why I guess the best thing that most of us can do is to just listen, even with all the advice you’ve given, ultimately it’s not for us to decide.
For me, being happy is the most important thing so from time to time I can’t understand why couples are still together even if they are clearly not happy being in each other’s presence. I’ve been with the hub for around 7 years. Although we’ve got differences but we’re still comfortable with one another. At the end of the day, I can’t see myself being with anyone else.
So for those who feel crappy in a relationship, I dedicate this song to you by Jack Johnson – Better Together. Lovely song.
There's no combination of words I could put on the back of a postcard, No song that I could sing But I can try for your heart, Our dreams, and they are made out of real things, Like a shoebox of photographs, With sepiatone loving, Love is the answer At least for most of the questions in my heart , Like why are we here? And where do we go? And how come it's so hard? It's not always easy, And sometimes life can be deceiving, I'll tell you one thing, its always better when we're together
Mmm, it's always better when we're together Yeah, we'll look at the stars when we're together Well, it's always better when we're together Yeah, it's always better when we're together
And all of these moments Just might find their way into my dreams tonight But I know that they'll be gone, When the morning light sings And brings new things, But tomorrow night you see That they'll be gone too, Too many things I have to do, But if all of these dreams might find their way Into my day to day scene I'll be under the impression, I was somewhere in-between With only two, Just me and you Not so many things we got to do, Or places we got to be We'll sit beneath the mango tree now
Yeah, it's always better when we're together Mmm, We're somewhere in-between together Well, it's always better when we're together Yeah, it's always better when we're together
Mmmmm Mmmmm Mmmmm I believe in memories They look so, so pretty when I sleep Hey now, and when, and when I wake up, You look so pretty sleeping next to me But there is not enough time, And there is no, no song I could sing And there is no combination of words I could say But I will still tell you one thing, We're better together
Just got an email from Vince on the characteristics of different horoscopes…
Guess what is mine?
Sagittarius - the happy-go-lucky one (this is what everyone describes sagis)
Characteristics- Good-natured optimist. Doesn't want to grow up (Peter Pan Syndrome). Indulges self. Boastful. Likes luxuries and gambling. Social and outgoing. Doesn't like responsibilities. Often fantasizes. Impatient. Fun to be around. Having lots of friends. Flirtatious. Doesn't like rules. Sometimes hypocritical. Dislikes being confined - tight spaces or even tight clothes. Doesn't like being doubted. Beautiful inside and out.
Anyway I wonder if this applies to all Sagis. Well, let’s see how true this is (to me)–
1) Good-natured optimist – Yes, I guess I am one…think happy thoughts.. 2) Doesn't want to grow up – I’m seriously having this syndrome now- To me, I’m always 18..hehe 3) Indulges self - Okay, I do enjoy going to the spa 4) Boastful – I think I am sometimes.. well, if it’s something to be proud of, why should we keep it quiet? 5) Likes luxuries and gambling – Luxuries, yes if I can afford..well for gambling, I do buy the lottery.. 6) Social and outgoing – I like to meet up with friends, if I do stay at home for a week, then I might have been abducted by an alien… 7) Doesn't like responsibilities – This is a little strange, cos I am a responsible person. Maybe this implies only when my mum wants me to tidy up my room and I take ages to do so.. 8) Often fantasizes – Hmm..I do fantasize occasionally..Johnny Depp here I come.. 9) Impatient – I have to admit I am impatient. I hate it when people are late for appointments (although I am always late) and I like to get things done up fast 10) Fun to be around. Having lots of friends – I hope my friends like me to be around..hehe 11) Flirtatious – Hmmm :P 12) Doesn't like rules – I hate rules and to follow by the book. Life’s not always about staying to the norm.. 13) Sometimes hypocritical – I could be hypocritical at times. I might smile at you but I might not like you…sorry… 14) Dislikes being confined – You could say that the thought of working in a room without any windows seriously freaks me out 15) Doesn't like being doubted – I do like to be trusted 16) Beautiful inside and out – I hope this is what people sees in me :)
I’m a little mad with the big boss. Firstly, he’s not sure what he wants. Yes, he’s a doctor but so what? For starters, please think of the target market. You say that you want the first tier applicants but on the other hand, you also want the numbers. For goodness sake, make up your bloody mind before you blame others and if you think you are good enough, offer your suggestions and don’t just talk. Anyone can talk.
I don’t always defend the clown but this time, the big boss has gone too far. Academics make bad bosses and that’s a fact. I’ll be having a meeting with the bosses next week and I’ll show my blackest face ever. Heck it...I don’t give a damn anymore..
Hi all, As you can see, I’ve changed the look of my blog. Just felt that I needed a change. The dots were a bit too cute for me. Hope you guys like it.
Hi Guys, I'm thinking of changing my blog’s skin (or template) – whatever you call that. So if you see weird fonts or html inscriptions. Just ignore it..
Lately, I’ve not been in the mood to watch any anime. Since I’m always facing the computer at work, to use it again at home seriously tires me out. When I’m at home, I usually like to rest on my couch and watch my cable channels. And the thing about me is that I like to watch an anime that has actually ended, I hate it when I have to wait a week to see what happens next (yes, I’m that anxious). And then a vicious cycle happens, I’ll go read the manga first and then I’ll realize that the manga is better then the anime (which is always the case) and ultimately, I’ll just stop watching the anime altogether (!!). It’s such a bad habit and I know it.
I’ve actually downloaded the entire 26 episodes of Azumanga Daioh but I’ve only managed to watch like 5 episodes, how pathetic is that? Hehe…my younger bro is complaining about the hard disk that I’m taking up but it’s like when I’m home, I just wanna lie down. I’m such a pig (no wonder I was born in the year of the pig)..
So my resolution for this week is to watch at least one episode of Azumanga Daioh (I’ll try)…
Btw my kawaii teddy bear Phia, "No Reservations" was kind of okay. But not that wow wow. The best bits were from the trailer and it’s quite slow paced. But since you are such a sucker for romance (hee), you’ll like it. Remember to watch it with your hubby..
I’ve been tagged by Ah Bui to write 30 things about myself:
1. Has a soft spot for my neighbor’s kitty (my handphone has pictures full of it) 2. Do not have a particular genre of music I like. Just whatever that suits my mood (right now – anything by Corrine Bailey Rae & Amy Winehouse) 3. Loves to club and chill with friends to distress myself 4. Loves to drink cocktail and white wine 5. Loves anything that’s ninhon (kawaii desu) 6. Loves her family 7. Loves to eat, don’t understand the word – diet 8. Loves to be in my cozy bed when it’s raining 9. Loves to watch crime shows on cable (csi, crime and investigation, fox crime) 10. Loves to read books about crime and murder..hehe.. 11. Wants to travel around the world 12. Has a tendency to spray myself with perfume after eating out, can’t stand the smell of food on my clothes 13. Hence, I always have a bottle of perfume in my bag : ) 14. Hate the working pace here, wants to go to the countryside to stay 15. Shopaholic (but has slowed down considerably) 16. Wants to go back to Melbourne, miss it so much 17. Trying my best to look at the world more positively 18. Original (not pretentious).. I am who I am.. 19. Will continue sleeping even if the alarm clock rings 20. Funny antics (as quoted from my friends). Likes to use the sentence – what’s wrong 21. Live one day at a time 22. To enjoy life to the fullest 23. Hope that no one will ask me when I’m getting married (stop it already!!) 24. Always smiling but will keep troubles to myself 25. First actor I fell in love with was Johnny Depp (when I was in primary school) ..secretly hopes that one day he will marry me but that won't happen..hehe 26. Constantly tells myself to continue my Jap classes, but I always don’t do it 27. Looks innocent but can be a devil at times.. 28. Too honest at times, can be too blunt.. oh and I think I can be witty too.. 29. Treasure close friends 30. I like guys that smell nice..hehe..so perfume is important..
Oh and if u think that I'm missing out on anything else, just add on..hehe
I've been on a movie spree lately (is that the right word to use?), watching movies at least once a week. Yesterday was Ratatouille (the animation was wow!!) and the week before was Hairspray, Rush Hour and The Simpsons Movie. Anyway today I’ll be watching No Reservations. It’s been ages since I’ve watched a romance show so I guess it would be nice. I've always been watching comedy or action-packed shows so this will be a good change…
A short preview of the movie - Ratatouille, which I found on the webbie --
I really hate the morning crowd & one thing I can’t stand it is when commuters read their newspapers in the crowded train. I mean it’s so crowded, how can they even read? It’s like a can of sardines. They just stand and read. Can they even concentrate? Sigh..it’s so packed already...I just don't understand :\ Oh and on a lighter note, I just bought Corrine Bailey Rae’s album!! Yeah!!
I’m afraid of growing old. It’s weird but that’s one of my fears. Sometimes when I see one of those elderly folks walking by and I think to myself will I be like that eventually? I look at my great grand mother who passed away in April and I'm like - gosh all of us will pass away some day.
To live her later years in a home was really heartbreaking. I remembered that I broke down several times in the office when I heard that she passed away. I even fell sick after her funeral. I regretted not visiting her often at the home. When I saw her at the wake, in my mind I told her how sorry I was for not visiting her often. Even if she had a lot of great grand children and I don’t think she could remember me (with her Alzheimer's disease), I should have visited her more. Although I don’t say it, but I was really really sad that she passed away. I cried a lot…
I never take my grandparents for granted and I feel blessed that they are still alive. I’ve told friends that if they did pass away, I'll definitely have a nervous breakdown. I can't even imagine if it happens. Currently, my grandpa has Alzheimer's disease but it’s not that serious yet, he would just repeat his questions and I’ll dutifully answer. Sometimes, he’ll still ask me how school was, even though I’ve been working for almost 2 years. But it doesn't matter as long as both of them are still around which is the most important thing….
I've always got a habit of printing my monthly calendar and pasting it at the front of my desk (in other words, for the month of September, I’ll print a calendar just for that month). As I was doing that, it occurred to me that it was already September 2007. It’s only 4 more months till 2008 and it’s really scary.
Time passes so fast that sometimes I feel that I’m not living the life that I want to. I want to live life to the fullest but I can’t say that I’ve done so. It feels empty sometimes..there are a lot of things that I want to do but I’m not able to do so. I want to travel around the country without a care in the world but of course that’s not possible...
I guess its human nature to always want more in life, even if you ask the richest person in the world - Are u happy and satisfied with the way things are? They will always say no, I want more. Life’s strange in that way isn’t it? We are never satisfied with what we want and sadly I've got to admit that I'm one of them..