Today I'm feeling much better. Was feeling alittle cranky yesterday, even hub felt it..hehe...
Right now, I having this phobia of checking my email. Not the personal one, but the office one. I'm scared of the number of emails I'll receive. Although I did have the "out-of-office auto reply"working, I'm scared of seeing how many emails I have in my inbox.
I remember that once I was on 2 days MC, I actually received close to over 50 emails. I was thinking of checking my inbox yesterday, but I don't wanna think of work. Even now, I'm struggling with the idea. You know what, maybe I'll check it tomorrow. Let me breathe before I start work on the 2rd.
Oh the new year is approaching and I would like to wish for world peace (I'm serious!!). Hmm..I don't think alot of people are aware of this - unless they read the world news but Benazir Bhutto was assassinated. Her role was critical to the U.S. government's role against terrorism. Btw she was the former Pakistani PM and was going to run for it again. Oh well..I don't wanna bore everyone with my political talk but thought that I wanna share this news to everyone too (http://edition.cnn.com/WORLD/)...
I'm back...reached Singapore at 1pm. Really really sad that I'm back to reality. I enjoyed myself in Chiangmai. I can't believe it's been 10 days already. I like the cold weather, the relaxed environment. Over there, the focus is never about money and it's about being happy. I also love how time passes so slow and how I could just sit back and read my book. I would lie on my rattan chair at the balcony and enjoy the scenery.
I hate it here - the kiasu-ness, the competitiveness etc. I've been thinking that I would like to migrate to Chiangmai, maybe not now, but in the future.....
Hi all, I'll be on a short-term hiatus and will not blog for around 10 days (though if I've managed to get some sort of Internet access, I'll try to blog)...
Anyway, wanna wish everyone an advanced Merry Christmas !!!
One more day till my holiday!! Right now, I've got mixed feelings. Of course, I'm happy to go for my much needed break but there are so many things at work that I've not settled yet. Oh gosh..I hope I don't have to work OT. By the way, I've not packed yet..hehe..I'm so dead...
This is madness..Oh I heard from my mum that it's freezing cold in Chiang Mai. Wow..I think I will just hibernate in my room and not move (under my blankie). I can sooo imagine myself doing that..
Anyway need to stop here..my little bro is rushing me. He wants to watch his anime ^_^
I'm pretty upset with my dad, he accidentally deleted my bday pics in the camera..and now all the pics are g-o-n-e. Sob...I had this gut feeling that it was going to happen & I should have transferred the pics to the computer asap. I can't believe that my gut feeling was so true, so the moral of the story is -- not to wait at the very last minute to do something. Well, at least my dad apologised and all is forgiven...
By the way, the clown called me this morning. Sigh..I think he's worried about the figures (or rather the management). I've got to reach the office at 8am tomorrow. I think the management are worrying for nothing, what's done is done. Let's just review the whole process for the next round. Realistically speaking, that's what I feel we should do. You know, I've voiced out my opinions so many times. I think there will be a "major" meeting tomorrow. I will just say it out. Trust me, I've been very very vocal here. It's like let's be realistic and for starters, hire more people. I'll be interviewing 2 candidates on Tues. Let's hope it turns out well.
I think I've been very critical lately but the loop holes are there. Why is no one taking note of it? It's frustrating in that sense. Thank god my second boss is an understanding guy, he & his wife actually brought dinner for us yesterday (I was touched). Anyway, I foresee a bad day tomorrow, I can just feel it. Though I'm leaving for my holiday on Wed, I feel that there's a lot of unsettled stuff. Sigh...
Why does this always happen to me? I left the previous workplace so that I could work in a more relaxed place. But wherever I go, why do I always end up in a high pressure environment? The good point though would be that I'll be getting my 13 mth bonus in a few days time and my performance bonus next year. Oh and the pay adjustment in Jan, I hope that the increase is good. That's the turning point for me. That defines whether it's worthwhile for me to stay. I'm in such a rotten mood now & I've got to attend someone's engagement party later..shit (no offence to that person). I just wanna scream right now....
Hehe..I feel like I'm always rushing to post something. I've got to work later so I was thinking since I've got some free time before lunch, why not blog? I'm not sure about other bloggers, but I feel that blogging helps me alot. It helps me to relieve whatever stress I feel at work or even thoughts that I've had & want to put across. Since I won't be having much Internet access in Chiang Mai, I guess I'll miss blogging alot.
To think that I started blogging just for the fun of it. But I've really enjoyed myself - though I've still got reservations on putting my pics here (that's why no pics just cute icons).
Oh..by the way, I like this song from Ai Otsuka (the MV is so cute - I always laugh at it) -
Come on guys..let's sing to the chorus -
CHU-LIP no koi moyou CHU sureba suru hodo suki ni naru CHU-LIP no koi moyou CHU sureba kizuku unmei no o-aite
Gosh, it's been so long since I've blog (I know it's only a couple of days....). Anyway, I've got 2 news to tell..the good news would be that my leave is approaching (yesh!!) & the bad news --- I've got to work tomorrow!!! Yes, a Saturday. But at least I could use it as an "off-in lieu kinda of thing". Might claim it next year...
Anyway, 5 more days till my holiday....hee....I need a break....
It's been raining cats & dogs these days. The weather makes me just wanna lay in bed, under my blankie and not move...
It feels so "christmasy" now...everywhere I go, I keep hearing x'mas songs being played. I really like x'mas but this time around, I won't be in Singapore and it feels kind of weird. Usually, my whole family will be having dinner at home with turkeys etc. Oh well..I guess a change is good...
By the way, I'm not sure if you guys have heard but there's been another shooting spree in the U.S. (after the one at Nebraska - 8 people were killed). It's really crazy how accessible guns are in the States. I mean they talk about terrorism and such but shouldn't they try to solve the problems that they're faced with? This time around, I think 5 were killed. It's chilling how these gunmen are so young..like 19-20...scary. Anyway, I could really go on and on about the U.S. but I don't wanna start another political post (hehe). I think I should have studied political science instead of business.. ^_^
2nd song that I'll play at my wedding - by the way when I say wedding, it doesn't mean now : )
Phia, I like this song..I think you should put this song in your ah lao's CD too...
Let's Fall in Love - Diana Krall
I have a feeling, it's a feeling,I'm concealing, I don't know why It's just a mental, sentimental alibi
But I adore you So strong for you Why go on stalling I am falling Our love is calling Why be shy?
Let's fall in love Why shouldn't we fall in love? Our hearts are made of it Let's take a chance Why be afraid of it
Let's close our eyes and make our own paradise Little we know of it, still we can try To make a go of it
We might have an end for each other To be or not be Let our hearts discover
Let's fall in love Why shouldn't we fall in love Now is the time for it, while we are young Let's fall in love
We might have and end for each other To be or not be Let our hearts discover
Let's fall in love Why shouldn't we fall in love? Now is the time for it, while we are young Let's fall in love Let's fall in love Let's fall in love Let's fall in love
Today is 8 Dec 07. 11 more days till I'm flying off & I won't be back to work till next year (though I'll be back in Singapore on the 28th)..hehe..yeah!! Can't wait..the long awaited rest. I think I need it. I will just eat, sleep in Chiangmai...
By the way, I kind of felt that this week went by very fast. 24 hours in a day is just not enough for me. I need more time. More time to enjoy, most of the time I'm working..I want more "me" time. I think that when you come to a certain age, what you want in life also changes. Right now, I'm always thinking of ways to enjoy myself. I can't be like one of those guys who just work & work. I just can't. That's why I will never ever work in a sales job cos' I think it'll be so pressurizing. It's like my hub's sis, she's working in the sales line, earns big bucks but has no life at all (that's what I feel - I may be wrong)..
But what I'm trying to get at is I think having lots of $$ is not everything. Yes, we live in a materialistic world but I think $$ doesn't really equate to happiness. You may have a lot of money but you might not be happy with your own life. Is chasing the 5 "C"s that important? How about "H" which is happiness? But I guess living in Singapore, it's hard to do so...the costs of living is increasing etc. I wanna live in some countryside place..in a cottage with a garden...hehe..I think I could go on & on...
Anyway need to stop here...got a splitting headache...better go get a nap before meeting hub...
I feel like I've not been blogging as much as I used to. I used to blog before I started my work but lately, I've been kind of lazy to do so (or maybe cos' my workload is increasing).
Anyway, I've got new help now but it's just temporary. This person was recommended by the clown to work here so I don't talk to him that much. Maybe you can call me anti-social but I'm so used to working alone that it doesn't matter. Although I would have preferred to work with a girl & you know what? The clown got this new part timer to get his classmate to help out. So it's going to be like 3 guys and 1 girl in the office. It's like lame with a capital L. Anyway who cares? I'm surprised at how much I can't be bothered with the clown right now..
By the way, the clown had a serious meeting with my big boss (I wouldn't want to go into details here) but let's just say it's not looking bright for the clown. I have to admit that even if at times I don't get along with the clown, but I really applaud his perseverance. His resistance is like wow. If I were in his shoes, I would have left this place long ago.
Oh and I had such a heavy dinner today. Dinner buffet at Hilton!!! It was yummy but my tummy feels so round now. My bro actually vomited when he got back home..^_^
Okay, I'll better stop here..will try to post something tomorrow..
I think men are pigs (well, except hub & a few others). Read this article in Glamour magazine (yes, I've got a thing for buying expensive magazines) about men who play around. I mean why do they still like someone else when they are attached? If they like playing around, why don't they just break off with their girlfriend and play around with as many women as possible? Why???? Maybe it's something that I can't comprehend. I mean I'm no angel but I don't see the logic in "moving" from one girl to another. At least spare a thought for your girlfriend!!!
Well, I guess some guys are just born players. I'm serious about it. It's like there are some girls who are always finding themselves liking "bad" boys.
By the way, have you realised that your partner will sometimes resemble the characteristics of your dad/mum? I swear by this. Well...I think hub is like a mini duplicate of my dad...hehe...
Btw this song's real old & it's been sung by alot of singers.
Here's Diana Krall's version -
What is there to write, what is there to say? Same things happen ev'ry day; Not a thing to write, not a thing to say, So I take my pen in hand and start the same old way.
Dear, I thought I'd drop a line, The weath-er's cool, the folks are fine; I'm in bed each night at nine, P.S. I LOVE YOU;
Yesterday we had some rain, But all in all, I can't complain; Was it dusty on the train? P.S. I LOVE YOU.
Write to the Browns just as soon as you're able, - they came a-round to call;- I burned a hole in the dining room table, And let me see, I think that's all; Nothing else for me to say, And so I'll close, but by the way, Ev'ry-bod-y's thinking of you. P.S. I LOVE YOU.
Feeling out of sorts, might be because it's that time of the month for me..
Anyway I've been thinking, maybe I should move on to another industry to work. I've been in this line for 2 years ++ and it's becoming such a chore to go to work. Talked to one of my colleagues yesterday and she told me that while I'm young, I should try going to other industries and not restrict myself to working here.
You know, maybe she has a point. I'm getting bored of work. I've got no motivation right now (I've told this to my boss too). It's like I work for the sake of working & not because I like what I'm doing. I'm always smiling to the bosses, but deep now, I'm so unhappy at work now. I know that there are people in worst situations but I'm just so not happy with myself.
Why do I do that to myself? Always not satisfied with myself. I look at people and they seem so easily satisfied with what they have. I want to be just like that but I just can't. I'm always raising the standard. I want this and I want that & this pisses the hell out of me. Am I the only one feeling like that? This just makes no sense to me..
Today I'm feeling much better. Was feeling alittle cranky yesterday, even hub felt it..hehe...
